Tuesday, January 10, 2012
I told him my crush that I like him and then walked away...?
Hmmm. So, I told a guy I've had feelings for that I liked him yesterday. I literally went up to him and told him that I have feelings for him...I kind of blurted out that we can't be friends because of that. I hate being vulnerable, so I was on the defense from moment one. And...I didn't really let him get a word in on purpose (In cause he didn't feel the same way). I think he was kind of, err, shocked...Either because I like him, or either because I bluntly stated it. Uhmm. I told him because we're going our separate ways after this year, and I didn't want to have any regrets. And in a way, I wanted to prove to myself that I'm capable of putting myself out there once again. Now, I'm kind of...Nervous. We share a cl, and therefore, I don't know HOW to endure the awkwardness. Especially because...I think I caught him off guard, dropped the bomb, and walked away Lol. I don't really know how to act. I knew that I was taking a risk by telling him, but that's what I wanted - To take a risk. I knew that it may make this awkward, or even ruin our friendship, but I thought being brave and honest is the best option, instead of having it weight on my conscience. Although I like him, I don't think I want to be in a relationship. Now I'm wondering what he's thinking.
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